Saturday, March 7, 2009

YOU deserve it all!!

in a very
real sense, we are
the authors of our
own lives. ~mandy aftel

how many times have we said to ourselves....what is mY purpose here? why am i here? what is all this for? we were sent here to live life to the fullest! many of us do this but many struggle day to day just to live. this life isn't easy. the roads we take aren't easy. many times we have to just jump on and hang on. many of us have to walk this life alone. it may not be by choice. though if you look deep enough you will see you are never REALLY alone. we truly are authors of our own lives! we get to decide if we wake up in the morning. we have a choice to make our day be a good one or bad. we can decide to smile {even if you don't want to} at a stranger or our enemy. we can choose to have many friends or none. we can choose to love and be loved. we can choose to love ourselves or hate ourselves. have you ever really sat back and took a great big deep cleansing breath? one in silence, one that makes you stop and see your surroundings, to see YOU? the real YOU! the one that for so long has wondered and thought of all the mistakes you have made in this life. the YOU that has talents that you have hidden for so long. the YOU that has loads of good in you that you have chosen not to see for a long time. the YOU that other people look at and say wow. the YOU that is quiet, yet open to others. the YOU that puts everyone before yourself. the YOU that would rather give your last dollar than see someone else struggle. the YOU that doesn't know why GOD has put these challenges in your life but knows that in the end they are there for a reason. the YOU that should be saying...i deserve to be haPpY. i deserve to be lOveD. i deserve to know what this life is all about.

YOU have the pOweR, YOU are the author of YOUR life. how you choose to live's all up to YOU!!

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

tHaNk yOu

it's been awhile since i have written. tOdaY is a daY i need to write! i have so much to be thankful for. so much to love and live for. my blessing are flowing over and i just can't seem to get it all out today.

don't know why but i started renting movies from netflix. i do know why...the movie rentals and late fees are outrageous! one of the first movies i received is ps. i love you. oh my gosh!!! why have i not seen this movie before. i mean, come's been out for 2 years now. maybe it wasn't the right time to see it. then when i got it and read the cover...i thought, do i want to watch this movie right now. with all that is going on in my life and with my aunt, i just can't. i have had this movie for 5 days and i put it in this morning. WOW is all i can say. i took so much out of this movie. life is short and we must live it and treasure every moment of it. if we don' just might not be worth living. so what if you have a bad day or someone made you mad. what are you gonna do about it? how are you going to deal with it? we have all had a loved one pass on, right? how did you cope? what did you do to celebrate their life? did you celebrate it or did you just treat it as another day? how do you celebrate it years later? what did you learn if anything? people make mistakes. we are suppose to. if we don't, we would be perfect and NO ONE is perfect! we are to dust ourselves off, jump back up and move forward. i know i have said this before but it is all coming full circle and hitting me right in the face.

"it's the little things" i say, that mean the most. the "i love you most", the good nights, the kisses when you tuck the kids in bed, the smiles on faces, the smell of fresh cut grass, the "hellos" and so many more. i am done trying to figure this life out. i have decided it's time to LIVE it! to celebrate the little things. to say thaNk yOu when complimented, to smiLe when i really don't want to cause maybe someone is falling in love with mY smile. it's giving when you have nothing else to give.

so this blog is my creativity for the day. mY something new that made me laugh, cry and smile all at the same time. it's my time to say "thank you" to all of you. for your support, your words, your thoughts, your kindness, your friendship and love! thanks for all the things you continue to do for me in mY life!!

"i am ok, i am alright. though you have gone from my life. you said that it would, now everything should be alright". ~flogging molly